An overdue update

I have a hard time letting go of people. But I also get pissed when people become inconsistent. What a predicament this puts me in! It's almost to the point where I need to delete contacts from my phone and facebook so I'm not constantly tempted to try to keep up with them.

I still struggle a lot with jealousy and feelings of inadequacy. Sometimes it's not so bad, but at other times it makes me not even want to be around this person people. I'm still praying for God to help me with it. I've gotten better at managing it as far as outward appearances, but not so much with the insides.

In other news, I passed my OB class! Let's shoot for the same in Peds, ok? Good. And as strange as it is to say it, I'm actually really enjoying the cardiac system-now that i'm starting to understand it.

Finally, my music pick. This has been my favorite Red song as of late, so here it is

Shadows-Red

Sunset, I close my eyes
I pretend everything's alright
Drowning in anger from all these lies
I can't pretend everything's alright
Please don't let me fall forever
Can you tell me it's over?

There's a hate inside of me like some kind of master
I tried to save you, but I can't find the answer
I'm holding onto you, I'll never let go
I need you with me as I enter the shadows

Caught in the darkness, I go blind
But can you help me find my way out?
Nobody hears me, I suffer the silence
Can you tell me it's over now?

There's a hate inside of me like some kind of master
I tried to save you, but I can't find the answer
I'm holding onto you, I'll never let go
I need you with me as I enter the shadows

I'm holding onto you [x2]
There's a hate inside of me like some kind of master
I tried to save you, but I can't find the answer
I'm holding onto you, I'll never let go
I need you with me as I enter the shadows