You know how when you were younger and you saw someone who was older than you and they were so cool? I even remember being in high school and seeing a college girl and thinking "man, she's so awesome. I can't wait until I'm in college."
That's me. I'm 21!?
I don't feel that old. I'll be 21 when I graduate. I'll be 21 when I-hopefully-pass the NCLEX and become a registered nurse. How weird is that?
So, in honor of my 21st birthday, my love for piano, and my deep appreciation for fantastic harmonies....here's a song! (Not the greatest in content, but, ya know...)
Saturday, July 30, 2011
Friday, July 22, 2011
Perfect?
I've been thinking about the word "perfect" and the weight that is carried with it. It's so overused.
"He's the perfect guy...This thing is perfect...I just made the perfect sandwich."
I think sometimes the word "perfect" puts too much expectations on people. People are not perfect...even your spouse/significant other. Saying that they are perfect puts too much pressure on them. God is the only perfect.
Psalm 119:96 "To all perfection I see a limit, but your commands are boundless."
So, I am going to try to eliminate this word, "perfect," from my vocabulary when not used in reference to the only Perfect. Now "awesome"--that's an awesome word!
"He's the perfect guy...This thing is perfect...I just made the perfect sandwich."
I think sometimes the word "perfect" puts too much expectations on people. People are not perfect...even your spouse/significant other. Saying that they are perfect puts too much pressure on them. God is the only perfect.
Psalm 119:96 "To all perfection I see a limit, but your commands are boundless."
So, I am going to try to eliminate this word, "perfect," from my vocabulary when not used in reference to the only Perfect. Now "awesome"--that's an awesome word!
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
I've got your back if you've got my hand
It's harder to write when you're in a good mood. Why is that?
Although I still struggle a lot, I feel better than I have in almost a year. It seems like I go through these phases where God has to strip away my friendships to help me realize something, and it's hard but rewarding. But really, it's only hard on the..well, hard days. Only on those days where I slip back into the bitterness and depression. It's still so very easy to slip back into it, but I think I've gotten better at preventing that. In addition, I've been trying to be a nicer person. A lot of things have hardened me. One of my professors told us today in class that she can tell that the nurses who care are the ones who cry. I've developed myself to the point where I can block myself from caring-not that I don't care, but that I don't show it anymore, or that I show it in inappropriate ways. So my goal has been to be less mean, let myself cry, wear my emotions a little more publicly.
School and work have kept me busy as a bee this summer. Only two and a half weeks left, thank goodness. It's not like either of them are particularly difficult, but when you combine them plus having to wake up at or before 6 every morning, it wears a body out. I'm ready to have a good week or two to let myself sleep late (past 730) and do nothing.
I turn 21 in 6 days! I've let myself get excited about this one because I haven't been pumped for anything in a long time, and frankly, the last two birthdays sucked. Let's go 21!
Although I still struggle a lot, I feel better than I have in almost a year. It seems like I go through these phases where God has to strip away my friendships to help me realize something, and it's hard but rewarding. But really, it's only hard on the..well, hard days. Only on those days where I slip back into the bitterness and depression. It's still so very easy to slip back into it, but I think I've gotten better at preventing that. In addition, I've been trying to be a nicer person. A lot of things have hardened me. One of my professors told us today in class that she can tell that the nurses who care are the ones who cry. I've developed myself to the point where I can block myself from caring-not that I don't care, but that I don't show it anymore, or that I show it in inappropriate ways. So my goal has been to be less mean, let myself cry, wear my emotions a little more publicly.
School and work have kept me busy as a bee this summer. Only two and a half weeks left, thank goodness. It's not like either of them are particularly difficult, but when you combine them plus having to wake up at or before 6 every morning, it wears a body out. I'm ready to have a good week or two to let myself sleep late (past 730) and do nothing.
I turn 21 in 6 days! I've let myself get excited about this one because I haven't been pumped for anything in a long time, and frankly, the last two birthdays sucked. Let's go 21!
Friday, July 8, 2011
Friday, July 1, 2011
Oh, feelings
You know that feeling of longing that sometimes comes with nostalgia? And the one that comes when you finish a great book series? Or at the end of a terrific movie? Yeah. I think I've gotten it from all of those areas this week.
Friday, June 24, 2011
Overcoming
Things have been on the up and up, for the most part. I think a big part of that is being discipled. I started going to a different community group, and I absolutely love it. I love the honesty, and the teaching, and the prayer. That's something that's been missing from my life for far too long. Also, I've started journaling my prayers. I've never been into journaling, but I find that this really helps keep me focused. I've kinda stolen the format from the days of Bible Journals in high school...I write out my favorite verse from what I read and then write out my prayer. And it's good to be able to go back and see how God has changed me.
One month until I turn 21!
One month until I turn 21!
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
Emptiness
Today has been quite forlorn.
1) I'm in summer school.
2) Driving around campus, seeing everything so much emptier than it usually is, is depressing
3) Again I've come to realize that I've isolated myself from everyone. All of the friends I used to have here at school are gone. Seeing the places around school where we used to go together brings back all the memories of the fun times, and the reminder of the mistakes I've made.
1) I'm in summer school.
2) Driving around campus, seeing everything so much emptier than it usually is, is depressing
3) Again I've come to realize that I've isolated myself from everyone. All of the friends I used to have here at school are gone. Seeing the places around school where we used to go together brings back all the memories of the fun times, and the reminder of the mistakes I've made.
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